. . . . . entries for 28.4.11 . . . . .
Must scan consent forms . . . must write thesis narrative. o.o
Food coma first?
. . . . . entries for 25.4.11 . . . . .
I have a meeting in the morning, an important one, and I think I am too braindead to prepare for it right now. I think I will legitimately wake up early? I think I will try this? I mean, if I go to bed now . . .
. . . . . entries for 24.4.11 . . . . .
Things left to do before noon tomorrow:
-handing in this negotiation score sheet
-writing a response for JDM
-writing a response for VJ's class
-editing this SiS article
Other things left to do, period:
-getting ready for meeting with VJ on Tuesday
-putting together and giving my practice thesis presentation
-finishing the CCC group project
-final paper for VJ's class
-actual departmental oral thesis defense and exam
-final exam for JDM
This is the last normal weekend of my undergraduate career. After this I will see the people I've lived with for the past almost-four years only from time to time. I won't live on this bizarre and beautiful campus anymore.
But some things never do change - and those some things are those that, at least once, I've been severely berated for blogging about, so I guess I just won't talk about them. But so help me, if those things touch my graduation, too, it will only be a sign that it's time to put myself where they can't reach.
. . . . . entries for 22.4.11 . . . . .
Grarrg, unhelpful guiding email was unhelpful.
. . . . . entries for 19.4.11 . . . . .
Poem idea, maybe a sestina: magnolias, decay, shade, color.
. . . . . entries for 18.4.11 . . . . .
Man, there are so many things this blog is missing because of those other sites. And I would like it to at least remind me of the most important things afoot, when I look at it ages hence. Maybe it will do that, at least.
I ninja'd home and to visit my boy this weekend. Way too much driving, but it was nice anyway.
Incidentally: see facebook for records of curry and Persian love cake cooking with ye olde DM, and parents putting icing on each other's faces.
And also my boyfriend is an incredible, improbable badass who has won two national fellowships and probably has to choose between them as he goes to one of the best doctoral programs in the country for what he wants to do, which just happens to be in the same general neck of the woods as that city I dearly love and hate, you know, the one inside the beltway.
Something's gonna work out, I imagine, is what I'm trying to say.
I have way too many internet places now. I never know where to post anything because suddenly a thought could go on Gaia, tumblr, here, or perhaps even facebook. What the heck.
But the thought of the moment is: I have tons of flowers on the windowsill in the common room (from my parents, times two, and from my sister, and some daffodils I picked myself thrown in), and below, in the grass, there are bright yellow dandelions not yet whacked by mowers. Elsewhere on campus whole trees are pink. It is springy and breezy and just as surprising and serendipitous-feeling as it always is, when it is.
The transitional seasons are my favorites.
. . . . . entries for 13.4.11 . . . . .
Also, for posterity, I have to say that two gentlemen whom I will identify only as CW and VJ had a serious brograbs moment in my class on Monday and it will go down in my personal history as one of the most epic moments of my undergraduate career.
My professors love my freaking rainbow-colored "your brain on climate" infographic. I also got an A- on my ridiculous, ad hoc, not-very-legitimate podcast. I'm taking the class pass/fail. FML.
Also I have a tumblr now: ouroboromnomnom.tumblr.com
I doubt it will really make this blog obsolete, since this blog is for different things, but it is there and already contains Things.
. . . . . entries for 11.4.11 . . . . .
Final thesis cloud (except for a couple very minor revisions):
Today one of the most politically important people in the country called me "blindingly bright, like a shiny new dime." Also I submitted my thesis. I dunno, pretty good day.
. . . . . entries for 10.4.11 . . . . .
Here we are: I should be alarmed, tense, something. But I walk outside and all the trees are in bloom. Tomorrow it'll crack 75, and the magnolias will open. I'll know where Frank will be next year within the next few days. My family is dysfunctional with or without my implicit emotional consent.
I don't know, but there's a little Aurelius in it, a little meditation.
Note to self: when you actually have time, go through this.
The world stops for no man! Or woman! Whether or not her thesis is due the next day!
(and by "the world" I mean God damn it you guys I wish by some accident of fate you would stop being the kinds of emotional wrecks that emotionally wreck me but the fact seems to be that you always are)
From Postsecret, or, my life is weird
Procrastination: practically unstoppable, even in the face of the most hyped-up project of my life so far.
. . . . . entries for 6.4.11 . . . . .
p.s. NYU MA info session gave me the creeps a little - not in a creepy way, just in a "hmmm pretty unwelcoming and suboptimal" way. Not sure if UW would necessarily be a lot better but I think even if I weren't driving super directly at my Ultimate Goals, I'd probably be happier there.
I emailed more people. We shall see.
I made a word cloud for my thesis intro draft. The main takeaway appears to be that I equivocate too much.
. . . . . entries for 2.4.11 . . . . .
So! I got into the master's program at NYU. That's, um, a thing.
This development should not, strictly speaking, change which options I still want to explore, since the utility of addition exploration should be independent-ish of whether a second option is available IF that option isn't an obvious yes, which I think it isn't, because going to not-Ph.D. grad school in NYC would be really expensive. But I don't really have any damn time, unfortunately. And New York would have the added benefit of continued bothering-CRED capabilities and maybe also bothering-Civilians capabilities. And it would be a couple of hours away from Parents.
If I went to UW - cheaper, probably, and more interdisciplinary - then I could actually live with Frank, assuming he decided to go there too, but I would also maybe be out there until he finished his Ph.D., so I couldn't really reapply to Columbia or other East Coast places (should that be my chosen route) until then - unless I were to decide that a cross-country relationship seems like an excellent idea, I guess.
Big decisions. Hrgl brgl.
come home?
.:people:.
{ting}
she looks like the real thing
{mari}
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THIS IS AMERICA
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stop being depressed
{alisa}
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manbeargreg
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turtles! turtles! by araglas
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